I'm cheating

Well in my dreams. I am not one to have dreams that often but let me tell you lately I am having vivid dreams about other men that I know. In my dreams I am not married but there is always something holding me back from attacking my prey. In my dreams I am very flirtatious and it is very obvious that I want these men. It is making it really awkward for when I really do see these guys. What is going on with me, these dreams are kinda freaking me out.

It started me thinking, are we suppose to be with one person sexually for the rest of our lives? Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and he is good in bed. But I was always rather horny and loved the thrill of the chase. Not exactly what you have to do when you are married.

I told one of my girlfriends about what has been happening and she told me maybe I should think about role playing. Hum, I wonder if this would help stop the fantasies. Now I have pictures of fireman and policeman flashing through my head... oh, to daydream.

Stay away from unclaimed green M&M's

On Saturday night at the 70s groove party we were sitting around playing twister while passing around a bowl of Christmas M&M's. Then Mr. Spaghettibender dropped one on the floor in which my friends dog immediately dove for and lick before Mr. SB took it away and placed it on the coffee table.

Skip forward about a half hour. We're still sitting on the sofa when my friend M who is sitting beside me says... "hey you know that green M&M on the coffee table..." before he even finishes the sentence I look at the coffee table ... my heart skips a beat because - IT"S GONE! I look at M and say "You mean the one that fell on the floor and the dog licked?". He says "I knew I should have asked why it was on the coffee table before I ate it". I almost pissed myself laughing. Still right now it make me laugh. He continued to tell me he thought it tasted furry. Honestly I didn't stop laughing for 5minutes.

I will never again look at green M&M's the same way.

Where does the weekend go. I was pretty good this weekend. Not too much overindulgence. I even managed a workout on Saturday. Last night however I was way too lazy. I am kicking myself for it now. I only have 26 more days to go and only 12lbs to go... yeah right 12lbs in 26 days. That is like 0.5lbs a day. Am I on the biggest loser working out 4hrs a day - no! So more reasonable is 2lbs a week times 3 weeks is 6lbs. Is that doable - hell ya for a normal human being that has some will power over the holidays. But that ain't me.

The 70s groove party was good this weekend. I was a little disappointed with the decorations - there were none but they did have 70s music and some old school arcade games. Takes ya back.

Here is our costumes

The dress wasn't all that flattering on my figure but when I realized I would have to put in a zipper to be able to take it in I said F&ck it and left it alone. Don't you love Mr. Spaghettibender moustache? Later on that night we ended up with a series of photos of the moustache as eyebrows. What we do for fun.

Today definitely feels like Monday. I am dragging my ass and I'm cold. Sounds like a perfect excuse for a coffee.

No Christmas spirit

Normally I am all over Christmas. I have my decorations ready to go as soon as Dec1st hits. Mr. Spaghettibender won't let me put them up before that. I have my Christmas cards ready to be mailed and I am playing Christmas music and frolicking around... okay maybe that's a bit of an overstatement but you get the drift. I love Christmas. I plan a big Christmas party for my family, some people live a bit out of town and we don't get to see everyone that much anymore. I buy lots of gift and I plan a few get-together's.

But this year ... nothing. I have no decorations up, I have no gifts bought, I didn't even crack the seal on the the Christmas card box. I am pathetic. I have tried listening to Christmas music to get in the mood- but nothin'! I'm starting to wonder if my heart has shrunk three sizes this year??

I don't know what it is about this year. I must admit I have become tired of the effort I put into our social events and the lack of enthusiasm from everyone involved. It is a lot of work and money to have these gatherings and I find my family and our friends just don't seem to appreciate it. So this year I said that I wasn't doing it. Which turns out is fine because we are still really busy with other parties every weekend. But for every party I ask if I can help out and tell them I will bring something like dessert or appetizers. Just one thing to take off the host/hostesses list of things to do. I even bring a little something just them to say thank you for the lovely party and all the effort it took to plan. Why the hell do I do this? Nobody does this for me. Then my mind starts to swirl with anger and resentment. And again the grinchyness (I love making up words) of it all starts to rear it ugly head.

How on earth do I get back the Christmas spirit?

I love my job

On my lunch hour, me and a fellow colleague designed a template for my hat and boot covers for my costume on Saturday. I finally had to go with a go-go girl, kinda like this

I found the perfect pink tweed dress at Value Village yesterday. Now tomorrow I'm going to bring in the white fabric and sew them on my lunch hour. So much nicer than wasting my precious evenings on these things.

Gotta luv the job!

Why is there so much running around in circles?

Supposedly as soon as a started working here I was suppose to get a medical clearance. Well every year work sends me for a medical so I must have medical clearance. Yet do you think I can get anyone to provide me with the documentation for me new job. No!

It isn't up to my new employer to get the information and my old employer says there is no form for medical clearance. So here I am running around in a circle trying to figure out who is right and how to provide these people with the forms so I finally accept my new job.

Come on people momma needs a new pair of shoes!

What the F$ck!

I am sick AGAIN! I wasted an entire weekend and a day off whining and complaining because I was sick yet again. I finally had a weekend that I didn't have to do anything except the actually things I wanted to do for myself and nothing. Absolutely nothing got done. No costume for this weekends party. No Christmas decorations hung. No gifts for Mr. Spaghettibenders last day of exams - NOTHING DONE!

Now I have only 5 days to come up with a 1977 inspired costume. So I was thinking either white go-go boots and short micro mini dress

or maybe a princess Leia since Star wars came out in 1977

Oh, I don't have the time to do this. Was Charlie's Angels out yet? Maybe I should look into that.